STPM is still going on, but yesterday I almost lost my will to continue the war. It’s like “damm, why am I this stupid and careless?” I really tried my best in doing all my studies but the examination shows that it’s still not enough. Few days before, my self-confidence were like being smashed bits by bits until math paper yesterday, it’s like ka-boom and a whole lots of marks were washed down the drain, my hope shattered. However, after one whole day of grudging and dissapointing, I realised I shouldn’t be doing those.
Just imagine we are in a war with 500 people on our side and 1000 on the enemy side. We are out-numbered and the best way to survive seems to be surrending ourselves. But is that the best choice we got. The answer is simple and it’s a no, because we won’t know whether we will survive if we surrender anyway. So the best choice is continue fighting because the probability of winning is not zero unless we give up, it’s is just lower.
I realise if I continue to be down, I will not even get a place in the university. I still have a chance to cover back my mistakes. All the papers we had done were all paper 2 and they only covers ranging from 50-62.5 marks of our total marks. So, even if I lost many marks in those papers. There is still a chance for me to score high CGPA, even that means I need to score 100% in my paper 1. Although the chance is slim, but again the probability is not zero, nothing is impossible.
Anyway, just to express and to share my thoughts with those who is too stress up or who wouldn’t mind reading this.
All the best for the rest of the papers.
